LETTING GO

The other night I had this dream. I was holding on this jagged mossy cliff that jutted out over a river that was roughly a hundred feet below.  Off in the distance was a large waterfall with several tiers.  I remember the feeling of holding onto the rocks; effortless and weightless.  However, I had to make a decision to hold on or to let go.  I remember looking down at the river and trying to gauge if the water was deep enough or would I injure myself.  I let go.  At the moment I let go of the image of everything washed away and I was floating in the ether peaceful and effortless.  

So what did this all mean!? Well, I pondered that for the morning and when I sat down for breakfast with hubby I told him about the dream.  He listened intently and then he smiled knowingly and said, “this is about letting go.” “Let go Jenn.” He was right.  

This past retrograde I felt all my old shit resurface like the bog of stench in the Labryinth. Something I did not want to deal with, but well like all lessons they will resurface until you deal.  So the question I want to answer for you today is how to you acknowledge what is happening and why you should let go.  

For me I need to let go of expectations.  I have so many expectations of how a person behaves, and I hold on when my expectations are not met.  I experienced this hard when I was in retrograde this time.  Shouldn’t we have expectations? Aren’t they called boundaries or values? I suppose.  We can have those, but I think the important line in all of this is projecting them onto other people and when we do this it can cause suffering and hurt feelings for ourselves.  That is when we need to let go.

 In the end, how a person behaves is not about me.  There could be so many circumstances to someone answering me curtly, or why they may not be able to give me the time I am looking for.  Instead of getting personally offended and holding on to the hurt like the edge of a jutting cliff, I can let go. Just like in the end of the dream, letting go helps ease the burden of suffering and live in a peaceful existence.  

Now I didn’t say that this was easy because it is not.  It is a practice time and time again, but if we are mindful of how holding on can hurt us, maybe we can make the choice to let go for our own freedom.  

Love and Light,

Jenn